An Open Letter From A Closet Christian

This is an open letter from a closet Christian.

I am tired of hiding behind these doors of fear that keep me from loving you according to my calling. I am weary of denying the truth to feel less guilty in this lie that I have created. I am fed up with this myth and this facade; I cannot take it any longer. I am coming out of the closet.

I am about to tell you something that might shock you. It will be shocking because you will wonder why I have not told you until now. You will wonder why others have not confessed to this as well. You will ponder why I have kept this to myself for so long. You might even get angry with me because you will not understand that what I am about to tell you is a message of love and hope, not of judgment and hate.

So here it is: the reason I have been hiding in this Christian closet all along, the truth that I wish was not true.

If you died tonight without turning from your sin and putting your faith and trust in Jesus Christ’s atoning work on the Cross, God would send you to a place of eternal torment called hell.

This is an open letter to the unsaved from a closet Christian.

You deserve the truth. You deserve to know not only about the love, grace and mercy of God but of His righteousness, justice and holiness. And I am truly sorry I have not told you sooner due to fear of what you might think.

You deserve to know how God truly sees you, not how you hope He sees you. If you have ever lied, He sees you as liar. If you have ever stolen anything, He sees you as a thief. If you have ever used His name in vain, He sees you as a blasphemer. If you have ever looked at someone with lust or hatred, He sees you as an adulterer and a murderer at heart. I am sorry I have not told you; I was worried you might think I was judging you.

You see, in your current state, you are not acceptable to God. You are a sinner who has broken His law and you cannot live up to His standard of holiness.

You therefore must be perfect, as your heavenly Father is perfect.” -Matthew 5:48

Do you want to know how you can get to heaven? I will tell you! You have to be morally perfect from the day you are born to the day you die. You will respond, “That is impossible!”

I completely agree with you. This is why God became a man 2,000 years ago and lived the perfect life you and I could not live. He then died on the cross to pay the penalty for our sins.

‘Surely he has borne our griefs
    and carried our sorrows;
yet we esteemed him stricken,
    smitten by God, and afflicted.
But he was pierced for our transgressions;
    he was crushed for our iniquities;
upon him was the chastisement that brought us peace,
    and with his wounds we are healed.
All we like sheep have gone astray;
    we have turned—every one—to his own way;
and the Lord has laid on him
    the iniquity of us all.’

-Isaiah 53:4-6

I am sorry.

I am sorry for all the times I could have spoken up and I did not. I am sorry for all the times I should have said something, was supposed to say something, have been commanded by my Lord and Savior to say something, but I kept my mouth shut. I am sorry that I had the truth but allowed you to live in a lie that would lead you straight to hell. I am sorry that I had the bread of life and never gave any to you when you were hungry and dying. I am sorry that I had the living water and never gave any to you when you were thirsty and perishing.

I am sorry that I knew you were destined to hell but never called you to repentance. I am sorry my cowardice has left you in the dark about the most crucial moment in the history of humanity. Forgive me for putting more stock in modern, man made methods than in the saving power of the gospel of Jesus Christ.

I never shared the good news with you because I was afraid you would think it was bad news. In fact I treated the good news much like it was bad news. I did not want to hurt your feelings. I did not want you to think I was being judgmental. I did not want to scare you away or turn you off to Christianity. I did not (fill in any other unworthy excuse).

I let you stay on the highway to hell because I did not care enough to warn you of the wrath that is to come, of the day God has appointed when He will judge the world.

“because he has fixed a day on which he will judge the world in righteousness by a man whom he has appointed; and of this he has given assurance to all by raising him from the dead.”

-Acts 17:31

I have found the only way to escape it and I “loved you” too much to not lift my voice and lead you to safety. To not give you a chance. To not let you be changed by the hearing of the gospel that so changed me.

I selfishly kept something to myself that was never meant to be mine alone. It has never been a message to the individual but a message to the masses.

You must repent and put your faith and trust in Christ alone to be saved!

Not by your goodness or your charity or your church attendance or your kindness towards others. These things will not and cannot save you! Christ alone paid the price and Christ alone is our hope and our salvation.

I convinced myself that this closet was okay because I was living like Christ the best way I knew how; I was shining my light and hoped eventually you would come and ask me why I am so different. You never did because you had your own life, your own problems and your own false view of God. As far as you were concerned you were better than any murderer and rapist so you were “good” enough to get into heaven.

I built a friendship in hopes of earning my right to share the gospel with you. However, the thought of death and spending forever in eternal torment before earning that right has shown me how unloving that method truly is.

It is No longer enough to stay silent and live by example hoping you will come and ask me why I am different. It is no longer enough to build a relationship with you for months and years before getting around to the good news. I am no longer keeping it to myself. I am telling you the truth and I am not going to sugar coat it by only telling you the easy and widely accepted ideals. I am giving it all to you: I have to warn you, I have to tell you why you need a Savior.

Him we proclaim, warning everyone and teaching everyone with all wisdom, that we may present everyone mature in Christ.

-Colossians 1:28

I am not going to soften your sin; to make sin less sinful is to make God less merciful.

I am not going to leave hell out; to avoid the reality of hell is to make God a god who doesn’t care about justice, what is right, good, and true.

I am not going to be silent about the coming judgment; this truth is what will show you the urgency of your situation.

God does not simply “have a wonderful plan for your life,” He wants to save your life from His consuming fire of holiness!

You can call me what you want. You can call me judgmental and hateful. You can tell me that I am not being loving. You can mock me for my convictions. But I must warn you to find shelter from the coming storm in the rock of Christ. If I did not do so, I would be hateful and truly unloving. I have to love my neighbor. I have to tell you where the grace, mercy and love of God can be found: in no other name but Jesus Christ.

Repent! Find life now while you still can! Run to the foot of the cross and cast all your hope on Him! Death is coming for you and you are not promised tomorrow; do not gamble with eternity. Make Christ your Savior for He is the only one who can save.

This is an open letter from a closet Christian.

I am coming out of the closet and I am sorry it has taken me this long.

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